aireyell

I'm at the library and I don't have class for another half hour. I've been here for 45 minutes already and it's getting pretty lame. Probably why I signed into livejournal after months of being dormant. Anyway, everything sucks right now. Just about. I can't wait for winter break 'cause I know that's when it will all clear up. For now, nothing is going how I hoped it would. I don't think I've ever been so angry. I wish I could be more detailed but if I did that, I'd probably get in even more trouble. I hate this. I'm gonna try to sleep all day tomorrow or go somewhere with Taylor. He always makes me feel so much better. Maybe we can see a movie... what good movies are out? Aaron, I'm talking to you. And I don't care if I don't get that car I wanted. I probably won't. Everything is always too good to be true. I'm starting to think that the things I've been trying to do aren't even worth the trouble. I think I'm going to stop everything, and hopefully it will all end up okay. Ugh. So pissed.

I've felt really good lately. This week, I went to work sunday, monday, and tuesday which was okay. Wednesday I spent with someone and it was amazing. We watched Coraline, which I've never seen, went to a park, and then back to his house. Yesterday I went to school, then hung out with Stephanie. Today, in my theater class, we practiced a play we had to write. It was so much fun. Afterward I visited the school and saw some people. I'm organizing my birthday party for tomorrow right now.
I gotta go call Stephanie!

I'm not good at writing about my thoughts, but I'm thinking about a lot of things right now...

FINALLY :))))))

Well okay, I took a train to Orlando for Independence Day. That was really cool. I was in a car accident on the way back and I'm fine. I was cheated on and it hurt more than the accident, but I can live... I met a lot of people last night which was really fun. I got a cool little bracelet thing and 2 cds from bands that aren't bad. And I have a $10 rewards card from Best Buy 'cause of something my mom signed up for. Helloo more cds. It was Alex's birthday on the 10th and we went to the beach, and then saw Bruno. Not my kind of movie, but it's fun to see with a lot of friends I guess. I ran into Dre at Starbucks about an hour ago, and she reminded me of my brother even more. I gave Stephanie my Menos El Oso cd so she can burn it. And finally, I took a career test and it says I'm mostly interested in Science (97%), Art (87%), and then Writing (81%). Cool :)

i'm in orlando right now, and i'm having so much fun. i love this.
i'm so angry at someone though, but i've anticipated this so it eases it a little. grawrr rr raar
stupid. stupid stupid.
but still, fun.

i'm at stephanie's right now :]
so many things are coming up; i'm so excited. i'm having a party this friday, and maria is having one on saturday.
jon is having one on the 11th.
i'm doing early admission, so no more high school.
i'm reading 3 really great books.
and there is one other thing that is making everything wonderful <33

today was probably the best school day of all year.
in 4th hour, i brought cheetos and 5 cds that i really wanted ms. phelps to play, but she didn't. i didn't really mind though, because we had the best food EVAR (ashley brought this fruit thing and lili brought coldestone and someone else brought white grape fruit juice). and then we played charades. and i got gabriel's; he did lord of the rings. and he told me to do shindler's list, hahaahahahaahahaha. but i did yes man instead. we stayed in her class for lunch too until eventually we left and sat in senior square(which i haven't done at all in high school so it's fun). and then i left gabriel to walk with stephanie to 5th hour, and mr. v wasn't here but megan was his sub so i talked to her for a little and then went to history. everybody heard what sounded like rain, but nobody was really sure if it was rain or an air vent. and while we were debating, some girl runs in and is soaking wet :D so when the bell rings the announcements tell us to disregard the bell because a fire started in m building. so we sat in a circle on the floor and play cards, and mr. g asked me if he could look at the cds. he picked up the decemberists, and he was like "do you mind if i play this?" and oh my god, it was the best thing ever. rain, cards, and the decemberists. and then i went to 6th hour and we watched shrek.

then school ended. now i'm home waiting for a call that's supposed to come in 15 minutes so i can leave and have more fun.

this stupid thing is making me feel like i depend on people. i could end everything, but i might be even more upset if i do. this is so ridiculous.

i don't even know what this is.
i'm probably wasting my time, it's just so hard to tell.

i've been having the best time of my life recently, but i'm starting to be bothered.
i have a boyfriend now, as of two days ago. i don't know what's going on.
anyway, road trip tomorrow!

people are really, really relentless. i'm afraid to even tell anybody that i'm going to work in case they find out somehow.
other than that, i like how things are. i got that gym membership two days ago! and i went yesterday. it was nice. i lost a battery to my game boy advance in school so i had to stop playing it.
and talking to someone about our plans after high school got confusing, and it made me really uncomfortable. i don't know what to do. i want to live with stephanie, but there are other things and people involved too.
aaron is still here. we watched a scanner darkly yesterday. so good.
and i'm about to go see somebody. i'm so excited <3

Things are going to be so different soon. I'm really excited. And I'm really happy. I'm pretty surprised that there hasn't been much that has made me upset recently, but it's relieving. My brother is down, which is also nice. I wish I'd spend time with different people once in a while, but i couldn't even imagine what it would be like not going to Stephanie's house everyday. It's nice knowing that I'm in complete control. I want to go down to the keys sometime. I want to go to Orlando, too, but I already have that planned. I need a gym membership again. Actually, I think I'll go get that right now.

I'm on top of everything except for my grades. Everything will start to change today. Prom is coming up; may 16th. Going to orlando this weekend. And a few times this summer. I'm pretty excited for everything.
I just don't really feel fulfilled. Now that everything is calming down, I'm kind of lonely.
I'm tired of dealing with all of those stupid relationship/ex-relationship problems.
Having friends really makes everything better.

i'm not feeling too good about this

i should have known that this was going to happen.

that really fucking hurt.

I'm leaving soon!
I'm going to miss everybody.

And sorry, Becca.
<3333333

I'm tired of working so hard in school and stressing myself out.

I'll go to UCF, live with Stephanie, and transfer after two years.
No point in going to a school like Cornell if I'm not going to be happy...

Besides that, I just watched 21. Coolest movie ever.

I just got back from seeing Monsters vs. Aliens with Brandon.
Lol, it's one of those movies similar to Cars. I liked it a lot.
I liked Brandon more, though <3

I'm so happy.
I didn't think things would last, and it's so nice and so unexpected for things to be how they are right now.